A decision

i decided to take a huge risk, to come up with this decision..
that is.. to defer my work training till November, in order to complete my very last module on hand.
Yes, this comes with a risk, that is, i have to turn up for a review session in September.

it's one of the hardest decision i've ever made in my life. Thinking between my last degree module VS a job that i really wanted to work in. & also bearing in mind that every decision i've made, comes with a consequence to bear.

Been seeking many people's opinions and views over the decision i've made. i should say that 70% percent of them feels that i've made the right choice, especially my family, boyfriend, and close friends involved. Studies always come first, i need to prioritize studies first.

But some feels that it might be a huge risk.. what if i fail review? i need to head back square one to try for this dream job of mine once again? Waking up as early as 5+am, to prepare yourself, dress smart and head down to queue and compete again 1000 over + applicants out there?

the feeling that i've already gotten/clinch the job, passed through the 6 rounds,  medical round cleared, got my training dates and all. but i chose to defer the training for my studies sake!
at the end of the day, i still think i've made the right choice, just detest the risk and worrying part that anything might happen, say if i didn't perform well during the review.
i'm extremely thankful with the HR personnel, she was really nice, she did tell me i don't need to try again from Round 1, just have to come back for a review session! *praying hardz*

i always wanna start off my career, knowing that my studies and other commitments are settled. I want to have a sense of assurance in it. i don't wish to feel distracted over this last module while commencing my flying duties. i don't wish to lose focus during trainings and not passing it at e end of the day. i want to graduate, and attend the convocation with my uni friends together in 2013! & i think most importantly, my parents really wanna c me graduate, and take a family graduation photo together! Honestly speaking, people who know my family background well, should know i wasn't academically inclined as compared to my other two sisters, so being able to officially graduate with a degree, it's a dream that my parents want me to fulfill for them!
i even have thoughts to ask Paul to take a graduation photo shoot with me in our gowns! that will be sooooo awesome! =)

Honestly speaking, i don't really feel that good during this period of time, towards the review. I tend to worry too much, wayyy too much like what my good friends been saying.
i need to think positively at times, everything will turn out well in the end.
i need to have just a little more faith in myself, knowing that i've already reached this stage, i do have the qualities they are looking for.. i need to pass through this last hurdle REVIEW stage! =)

from now till September review, it's a good 2 months +.
have so many things on the list i wanna do/achieve.

1. gym, attend more work out classes, need to keep to my fittest (just in case i've to fit in the uniform again!)
2. read a book, yes. my 5 languages of love
3. praying hard F1 calls me up, SUPER GOOD PAY.
4. packed my room
5. take really good care of my complexion, hydrate, and eat more fruits/vegs!
6.spend more quality time with my family/nephew/friends and my boyfriend
7.look forward to my 1 week pre graduation taiwan trip with boyfriend =D
8. study real hard for my module, making sure i'll cleared it.

okay, so whats your view then?